Overwhelmed < THIS has been my mantra the past week, and quite frankly it needs to change! Only 20 days ’til closing on our present home and we’ve yet to begin packing. Let’s face it, selling/buying/moving is stressful, and even though I’ve done this way more than the average bear, there is no escaping the laborious motions of uprooting.
Oftentimes we are what we tell ourselves. At the beginning of this year I decided to break up with my inner dialogue – she was a hot mess and was quite a downer donna. Through meditation I took up with a much more positive, intentional, peaceful dharma donna. But old habits die hard…ole downer donna snits her little snitty self back into my subconscious when times go awry.
But moving forward (literally and figuratively) my intentions are to stay focused on all the positive changes coming in our lives. My inner dialogue focus will be thankfulness and promise. No more overwhelmed – new mantra is excited.
The small entrance pond below will be one of the hardest things I leave behind at our present home. My son and I built this pond in a matter of 2 hours. I won the liner, pump, and tubing from ebay for $18. I then had a half a pallet of muddy rocks delivered for $60. Our son was in a very deep place in his mind that day, most often referred to by professionals as symptoms of schizophrenia. During his worst days I learned we were both therapeutically served by digging in mother earth. That day he dug furiously, but not as furiously as I worried and prayed for his relief.
Promise is beauty born out of our darkest times.
Namasté,
donna
